Easier said than done…

Just last night I was talking to the girlfriend. She was struggling on whether or not she should talk to her professor about dropping her class. To the best of my memory, here’s what I told her.

“You just got to do it. What other options do you have?”

She agreed, but of course she was still stressing out over it as I continued to provide more advice and words of encouragement. The funny thing is that it’s easier said than done, right? Because flash forward to today and oh boy here I am sitting.. frozen in my seat. I have the interviews lined up, I have my plan for the next few months, and now I had to talk to my coworker about leaving.

I told myself that I would do it this morning, but shit it’s almost 3 in the afternoon! So now why am I so scared? I could easily give the advice, but now I’m struggling to take my own advice. I know what has to be done, but I’m sitting frozen in my seat wondering…

“Am I making the right choice?”

“How would my coworker react?”

“Would she beg me to stay or not put up a fight?”

Now I’m frozen by  my own doubts and thoughts. So the better question to ask is why am I doubting myself? I’ve thought about this for month and the light at the end of the tunnel is so close. I can see it and I can smell the outside, so why?? why am I so scared??

Now it’s time to breath and remember my reasons, my plans, and the future that I’m aiming for. If I can’t overcome this fear then I’ll never ready for what’s after. I think I just have to remember how I felt going on the Guardians of the Galaxy ride at Disney. I was nervous, sweating and almost backed out, but I pushed forward. Just went on it and literally took a leap of faith!

So.. I just got to leap and take the plunge.

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