T-Minus 2 days

Unemployed? Check.

Laptop upgraded? Check.

Uncertain future and fear of the unknown? Check and check.

NaNoWriMo is upon us and I’m itching to begin writing my story. For the past month, I was going back and forth, wondering whether or not I was making the right decision. I wanted to draw and write and turn those skills into a career, but I struggled with learning both at the same time.

Now here I am, my first Monday being unemployed, and boy is it both great and scary. Great because now I can finally focus all my time on writing and drawing, exactly what I wanted. Scary, because a part of me has been so used to working 40 hours a week at a stable career. Now there’s this damn question in the back of my head, “Who would want to employ this unemployed, lazy, and uncommitted individual?” After all, gaps in employment are a big no no in your work history, isn’t it?

But I’m not just sitting around and twiddling my thumbs. I’m here at Coffee Bean (I didn’t start as early as I hoped, but I’m here!) working on the outline for my novel, which I’ll start writing in about 2 days! 50,000 words in 30 days! Holy crap, it’s going to be my biggest endeavor that I’ve undertaken, but I’m going to do it. Throughout this month, I can anticipate the following questions popping into my head….

“Shouldn’t you get a job?”

“What if your book doesn’t get published?”

“What’s the point in putting all this time into writing a book if it’s not going to make you money?”

To all those negative thoughts… screw you! Yes, I could be making the biggest mistake of my life, but at the same time. This could be the stepping stone towards me becoming a writer/animator, and I’m not going to let this opportunity slip by, not anymore.

So NaNoWriMo, get ready because I’m going to kick your ass and beat this challenge.

I will get a book published, and my name will be on the spine of a book one day!

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