Laptop upgraded? Check.
Uncertain future and fear of the unknown? Check and check.
NaNoWriMo is upon us and I’m itching to begin writing my story. For the past month, I was going back and forth, wondering whether or not I was making the right decision. I wanted to draw and write and turn those skills into a career, but I struggled with learning both at the same time.
Now here I am, my first Monday being unemployed, and boy is it both great and scary. Great because now I can finally focus all my time on writing and drawing, exactly what I wanted. Scary, because a part of me has been so used to working 40 hours a week at a stable career. Now there’s this damn question in the back of my head, “Who would want to employ this unemployed, lazy, and uncommitted individual?” After all, gaps in employment are a big no no in your work history, isn’t it?
But I’m not just sitting around and twiddling my thumbs. I’m here at Coffee Bean (I didn’t start as early as I hoped, but I’m here!) working on the outline for my novel, which I’ll start writing in about 2 days! 50,000 words in 30 days! Holy crap, it’s going to be my biggest endeavor that I’ve undertaken, but I’m going to do it. Throughout this month, I can anticipate the following questions popping into my head….
“Shouldn’t you get a job?”
“What if your book doesn’t get published?”
“What’s the point in putting all this time into writing a book if it’s not going to make you money?”
To all those negative thoughts… screw you! Yes, I could be making the biggest mistake of my life, but at the same time. This could be the stepping stone towards me becoming a writer/animator, and I’m not going to let this opportunity slip by, not anymore.
So NaNoWriMo, get ready because I’m going to kick your ass and beat this challenge.
I will get a book published, and my name will be on the spine of a book one day!